Lin Daiyu’s sense of life anxiety The original study of a Dream of Red Mansions in Lanji culture is included in the topic # 155: Going home like a rainbow.
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In the twenty-seventh chapter of A Dream of Red Mansions, Lin Daiyu sang "Burying Flowers". Among them, "no sad songs for me, I don’t know when flowers fall and people die" is a poem that is very shocking to the soul.
At that time, Lin Daiyu was a twelve-year-old girl, but she was already thinking about life and death, full of anxiety about death.
A normal twelve-year-old girl is not so sensitive to the fall of life. However, Lin Daiyu is a person who has been taking medicine since she was able to eat, and she has been tortured by diseases since she was a child.
Both Lin Daiyu’s parents died young, so Lin Daiyu’s feelings about impermanence of life are much stronger than the average person.
The experience of leaving home and living in the family’s home has also deepened Lin Daiyu’s inner anxiety and worry.
For Lin Daiyu, there are two biggest spiritual pillars in the Jia family: Jia Mu and Jia Baoyu. However, the feelings between her and Jia Baoyu can only be in a depressed state. At first, she didn’t always understand Jia Baoyu’s mind clearly.
Therefore, in the 26th episode, Lin Daiyu went to see Jia Baoyu in the middle of the night. After being rejected by Qingwen, she would cry because of mental frustration.
The poem "A whimper is still pending, and the flowers are falling all over the ground, and the birds are startled to fly" reminds people of Du Fu’s "where petals have been shed like tears, and lonely birds have sung their grief".
Like Du Fu, Lin Daiyu’s heart is full of parting feelings and hating, full of regrets brought to her by the lack of emotions, and full of feelings that are not fulfilled. For Lin Daiyu, emotion is her life, and the deformity of emotional world is the deformity of life.
Therefore, when Lin Daiyu saw the withered fallen flowers, she would feel so distressed that she and the fallen flowers were in the same boat, and they all suffered the pain of "360 days a year, the wind and the sword were forced."
Twelve years old should have been a carefree age. However, Lin Daiyu felt the desolation of fate prematurely and realized the fragility of life.
The anxiety made Lin Daiyu’s condition never get better. Sad lungs and sentimental personality make Lin Daiyu’s body more haggard.
Even after hearing Jia Baoyu’s "Don’t worry" and getting two handkerchiefs that Jia Baoyu asked Qingwen to send, and her feelings with Jia Baoyu stabilized, Lin Daiyu could not get rid of her sadness.
Because Lin Daiyu can’t see the future of herself and Jia Baoyu, her heart is full of anxiety. She doesn’t know who can make decisions for her own marriage, and she doesn’t know whether she can give Jia Baoyu a healthy partner.
Lin Daiyu told Xue Baochai in the 45th chapter:
"It’s useless. I know I can’t get better from my illness. Let’s not talk about illness, just talk about how I look on a good day. "
It can be seen that Lin Daiyu’s sick body has brought great mental pressure, and Lin Daiyu has no confidence in recovery.
For a patient, besides scientific treatment, the most important thing is the belief in fighting the disease and the courage to live. In fact, doesn’t Lin Daiyu want to live? Only by living can there be happiness and a future. But Lin Daiyu can’t see hope.
As a result, Lin Daiyu’s poems are full of helplessness, even a sense of suppressing pain.
"I feel that the autumn window is endless in autumn, so it is as bleak as the wind and rain" in "Autumn Window is stormy and rainy" makes people feel endless sadness; In "Peach Blossom", "Tears are easy to dry when you look at flowers, and tears dry when spring is exhausted" makes people feel the desolation of shedding blood and tears; In "Tang Duoling", "Even the grass and trees know their worries, and the youth will grow old" makes people feel the vicissitudes of life in a hurry.
According to Xue Baochai’s statement in the twenty-second chapter, what Lin Daiyu said is "no foothold, it is clean".
From a positive point of view, "no foothold is clean" is chic, and it is the freedom to pursue "nothing to be done". However, this sentence, like "the white land is really clean", brings people the feeling of emptiness and nothingness, and makes people feel the feeling of no home after losing everything. Only a haggard person like Lin Daiyu can thoroughly understand this at a young age.
What is valuable is that Lin Daiyu doesn’t know where her home is, but she is willing to give the fallen flowers a clean home, but she is distressed by the withered lotus and has a special liking for "leaving the withered lotus to listen to the rain". Because, Lin Daiyu saw herself in the fallen flowers and withered lotus, with the feelings of people’s love, appreciation of the beauty of incompleteness, and her heart is full of poetry.
Lin Daiyu cherishes life very much, and has a real feeling for the pain that death brings to the soul. Therefore, she feels particularly sad about the fall of life. In Lin Daiyu’s view, life is short, but it is also beautiful and worth cherishing.
Cherish the beauty of life and the shadow of death make Lin Daiyu unable to get out of the pain brought by the passing of life.
Therefore, behind Lin Daiyu’s anxiety is love, love for life and persistence in love.
Original title: Lin Daiyu’s Life Anxiety